It’s hard to express how much apprehension I have about publishing this novel.
While I’ve had enough confidence to write it, and invest some money in the design, editing, and publicity, etc., the cacophony of voices in my head are often loud enough to drown out whatever self-encouragement I’m able to muster. What if I’m just a crazy guy who has written a book? What if my message is lost in all the minutiae? What if my Christian friends and family are so repulsed by the book that it harms those relationships?
But the loudest fear of all is this: what if I listen to those voices and don’t publish it? The debate ends right there. I would rather go to my grave knowing that I tried, even if I fail.
Status update: the rewrite is completely done, and I’m exactly 50% done with the final proofing. Then I will be sending it off to a few readers to get one last round of feedback. One more round of editing after that, then it’s off to the designer. I will be employing my good friend Stephen to do the graphic design. I should have a few covers to post soon. I’m doing research into publicists now, and if I have any money left over, may hire a professional editor.
Onward!
Zealot, the novel 